By: Ray Taylor. Not a Doctor.
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You promised yourself this morning. You meant it with your whole chest. And by nine at night you were standing in a gas station under those ugly fluorescent lights with something in your hand you swore off twelve hours ago, hating yourself the whole way home.
I know that drive home. I took it more times than I can count.
You have probably decided by now that everybody else got handed willpower and you got skipped. That the people who keep the weight off and keep the numbers down have something in them you were just born without. And somewhere underneath all of it, you have started to believe the diabetes itself is a verdict on your character. That you did this to yourself because you are weak.
I need to tell you something it took me years to understand. That is a lie. Not a comforting lie I am telling you so you feel better. A flat-out factual lie about how your own body works.
What you are fighting at nine at night is not a missing virtue. It is biology. And once you understand the actual machine you are up against, the shame starts to come off you like a wet coat.
First, let me tell you who is saying this
I am not a doctor. I am just a guy who got sick and tired of being sick and tired.
In July of 2022 my A1C was 11.7. I was on metformin, glipizide, and insulin, all three at once, and I was still getting worse. I landed in a hospital bed with my blood sugar reading 450. Around that same stretch a catheter found a 50 percent blockage in my main heart artery. I was forty-something, fat, sick, and five years deep into Type 2 diabetes, and my body was failing in real time.

As of March 2026, my A1C is 5.5. That is the normal range. I take zero diabetes medication. That whole climb took about three and a half years.
Here is the part that matters for this post. I have zero willpower. I am not being humble. I am the guy who used to shotgun sugar packets at the Wawa like a maniac. I did not out-tough this disease. I did not white-knuckle my way to a normal A1C. I stopped fighting the wrong fight. And I am going to show you what the right fight actually is.
The shame is built on a lie about your body
Here is the lie, stated plainly. The world told you that Type 2 diabetes is a moral problem. That it is what happens to people who do not care, who have no discipline, who let themselves go.
That framing is everywhere, and it is poison, because it points you at the wrong target. If the problem is your character, then the fix is to “try harder,” and when trying harder does not work, the only thing left to conclude is that you are broken.
You are not broken. The cravings, the food noise, the nine o’clock pull toward the cabinet, none of that is evidence of a weak character. It is the predictable output of a biological cascade that has been building in your body for years. I wrote it down in my book this way, and I will say it to you straight here too. You have not failed as a person. You are having a predictable, and frankly intended, response to what is happening inside you and what is being marketed at you. There is a difference between those two things, and that difference is the whole ballgame.
I refused the shame from the very beginning. Not because I was tough about it, but because shame asks you to accept one premise first, that you did this to yourself on purpose. I never accepted that premise. I want you to refuse it too.
What is actually happening inside you: rusty locks
Let me give you the picture that flipped the light on for me.
Insulin is a key. Your cells are doors with locks on them. When everything is working, insulin the key slides into the lock, the door opens, and the fuel from your food gets into the cell where it belongs.
In Type 2 diabetes, the locks rusted shut.
That is it. That is the root of the whole thing. I called it “rusty locks” in the book because that is exactly what it feels like is happening. Here is the line, word for word.
“Rusty Locks (Insulin Resistance): The ‘locks’ (on the cells) are rusty so the ‘keys’ (insulin) can’t open them and let the glucose (fuel) in.”
Picture what that does. The key does not turn. The door stays shut. The fuel has nowhere to go, so it just piles up in your blood, circling around with no exit. That is your high blood sugar. It is not the fuel’s fault and it is not your fault. The locks are jammed.
And the rust did not appear because you are lazy. It builds from specific physical conditions, things like deep belly fat that gums up the signal and years of inflammation from processed food. There is more to the full cascade, what happens next when your pancreas starts working overtime trying to force those rusty locks open, and eventually what happens when it burns out. I walk through the entire chain in the book. But you do not need the whole mechanism to feel the relief right now. You just need the picture. Rusted locks. A key that will not turn. A problem in the machine, not a flaw in the man.
Why “try harder” was never going to work
Now look at what that means for willpower.
If the actual problem is rusted locks and a system under strain, then “just use more willpower” was doomed from the start. You cannot white-knuckle a biological mechanism back into working. You cannot grit your teeth hard enough to un-rust a lock. It is like being handed a key that does not fit and getting yelled at for not opening the door.
I said it plainly in the book, and I will repeat it here because it is the line I wish someone had handed me years earlier. Fixing what you eat is critical, but it is not a physical fight, it is warfare of the mind. The cravings at night are real. Sometimes, in my own words, the cookies are calling you from the cabinet, and telling yourself to “have more discipline” in that moment is useless advice. I know, because I was the guy it never worked on.
So the cravings are not proof you are weak. They are proof you are a normal human being with a normal brain that got trained, since you were old enough to watch cartoons, to reach for sugar when you want comfort. Real thing. Real wiring. Not a character defect.
This is the liberating turn, so do not skim past it. The lever was never “try harder.” The lever is changing the conditions that caused the rust in the first place. Food. Movement. Fasting. You do not fight the mechanism. You change what you feed it. That is a completely different fight, and unlike the willpower fight, it is one you can actually win.

Want the whole thing in order? That is exactly why I wrote the book. Type 2 Ain’t My Type lays out the full system the way I actually did it. The 12 week plan, week by week, plus the toolkits for the parts that trip people up. The food swaps. Reading labels. Beating the cravings. Eating out. Staying in remission once you get there. It is everything I wish someone had handed me at 11.7.
Here is the part to hang your hat on
Because it is biology and not character, it can change.
That is the hope, and it is not a slogan, it is mechanical. Rusty locks can be cleaned up. Insulin resistance is driven mostly by the things you do, your food, your movement, the rest you give your body, which means the things you do can drive it back the other way. When you clean up what you eat and you move and you give your body real breaks from constant eating, you are not just chasing a lower number on a meter. You are literally helping those cells open back up and take in the fuel the rusty locks were keeping out. You are easing the strain on a pancreas that has been screaming for years.
I am living proof the locks can be cleaned. I went from an 11.7 A1C and three medications, from a 450 in a hospital bed, to a 5.5 and none. Not because I found willpower at fifty. I never found it. I changed the approach. I stopped trying to out-discipline a machine and started fixing the machine instead.
And let me be honest with you about your part in this, because I am not going to blow smoke. You may not land all the way in remission like I did. I cannot promise you my exact result. But you can absolutely get better. Lower numbers, more energy, maybe less medication down the road, with your doctor in your corner the whole way. That is real, and it starts the second you stop believing the lie that this was a character flaw.
This is not medical advice. Always talk to your doctor before you change your diet, your movement, or your medication.
You can put the shame down now
You have carried the shame longer than you have carried the disease. I know, because it was the single heaviest thing I hauled around too, heavier than the diagnosis. And it was built on a lie the whole time.
You are not weak. You never were. You were fighting a biological cascade with a tool, willpower, that was never going to touch it. That is not a failure of character. That is just aiming at the wrong target. Now you know where the real target is.
Consistent persistence overcomes resistance. Every. Single. Time. Notice that the mantra does not say “willpower overcomes resistance.” It says persistence. The boring, repeatable, un-heroic act of doing the next right thing for your body and then doing it again tomorrow. That is the thing that cleans the rust. Not a clenched jaw. A pattern.
So put the wet coat down. Then go read your own story in a new light, the one where the nine o’clock pull was never your fault, and getting better was always inside your reach. Read the next step here.
What time does your shame voice usually show up? Mine had a schedule too, right around nine. Tell me yours in the comments. I read them.
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